Positivity Shall Reign

                                                                                 Sometimes I feel like giving up,

what's the sense?

No matter how hard I try to keep the peace

they always try to get the best of  me.

But I have come to the realisation that I am Stronger than I think.

Stronger than I would ever give myself credit for.....

Six months ago I would have stressed myself to the grave. It got so terrible that I was constantly sick.

Well I have decided that I will not let stress take me over, I  have turned a new page and  I am ready to write POSITIVE into my life.

No longer will I allow people to throw NEGATIVE energy at me, I will block that out with POSITIVE.

The negative things and people will not get the better  part of me in 2014, I will overcome ALL challenges with a constant SMILE on my face because I am being tested and I will NOT fail.

I am happy, I have life, I have POSITIVE friends and family.

Negative I suggest you take a back seat, as a matter of fact...GET THE HELL out of my car...#positivityshallreign

Little Simple thingamajigs!

I often sit and wonder what are the things which really matter. Then my thinking just leads me in one direction to the things that really matter to me.

It really doesn't take a lot to keep me happy and content, its just the little simple thingamajigs that really count.

You need to know that it is never necessary to go all out to please me by buying fancy material which are only pleasing to the flesh and not my soul.

I'm a kinda girl who enjoys the soul pleasing stuff....I think about my needs more than my wants....

Today  he asked me "what would you like for your birthday?" and then I thought...

I would like to wake up in good health on that morning with you by my side in good health as well....cuddle with you and listen to the sound of nature, the sound of each other's heartbeat and thank the Lord for life.

I don't need a material gift, because God has given me my greatest gift when he blessed me with a husband like you. Caring, Loving and trustworthy....those values in you I cherish every single day because I know life doesn't get any better than that.

So the money, the jewellery and all the other fancy expensive things...keep them...Give me 'Little Simple thingamajigs'! 

Dedicated to my husband!

Kristin

Anti-Anger

No matter how hard you may try at times not to be angry with someone or at something, that anger is REAL!
That anger, That frustration...That HATE can take years to build up, but no matter how hard you try at some point it you will explode and things could get pretty dirty!!

The element of your frustration and anger crawls under your skin and prowls when you are at your weakest, it eats you up inside like a bad cavity.

The frustration is REAL! 

That annoying feeling to have that anger eat you away...it hurts most when it touches the heart and you're holding on to life while still holding on to that anger.

What do you do? You get angry some more because nothing can change the way you feel....NOTHING!

Don't you just hate when all of this hits home and you realise you're so damn angry you could hardly speak??

Sorry you say, are you really?
Sorry? Save it!!

You ain't sorry cause this 'ANGER' will come again!

People Pleaser?

Pleasing People is so hard to do. That's why I don't try to please people, I just do what I know is right and best for me. 

Too many people sit down and just criticise everything that's going on around them. I mean there is nothing wrong with constructive criticism, but when you know for a fact that you can't do better...its always best to keep your mouth shut and just observe.

I am really tired of people who just talk talk talk talk and have NO action...can't do a damn thing and just criticise the people who actually try. 

Before you start criticising people, make sure that YOU are in tact. Make you that you don't live in a glass house.Make sure that your house is built on a rock and not sand.

Try to say something positive to someone today...try to make them smile, it might just be the only smile they get for day. 

TRY TO BE THE CHANGE YOU WANT TO SEE IN OUR WORLD!

Success?

How does one measure success really?

Is it measured by the level of education  or is it the fancy clothes, shoes and other material things you may have?

I think success is really measured in different ways by different people.

Some may walk around all high and mighty because they wear the latest of clothes and shoes or have the latest electronics. Some may say I am very successful because I have a sound education, I am so qualified that I can nail any job I choose to have.Some may say I'm successful because I am saved and I have God at the center of my life.

But when you think of it judging success by what you have can never be success at all. When you die what are people going to remember you by? Do you really want to be remembered by the just the fancy things you had in your possession or do you want to be remembered for much more than that?

You walk around with you head held high chanting how successful you are, but what do you have to show?

As I walk this road of life I will never want to be remembered for material things, instead I would want to be remembered for the way I treated persons who I came into contact with. I would want to be remembered as the person who changed someone's life just by a simple word of encouragement or even a smile.I would want to be remembered for keeping God at the center of my life.

That is what success means to me....being genuine to others and keeping God in the midst of every single thing I do!!!

Others may not think of success this way and you are free to your own opinion.

But what ever success you may choose to strive for,
while you're on the path of 'your' success....NEVER EVER try to step on others to get to the top, cause when you fall, you fall hard.

The Past is HISTORY

They say the only way you can truly live life is by letting go of the past and the things you can not change.

The hardest thing however is not knowing how to let go of that one thing that keeps punching you in the ass every time you try to move on. 

We have all done things in our past that we are not proud of, but it's how you rise and make a change after all of those mistakes and regrets.No man is perfect and we can fall at any time in our lives. But are we going to stay down?

I'm not! I'm as good as the next bad person, and I refuse to be taunted by my past, REFUSE to!!

I will not allow my past mistakes and regrets tarnish my rich and blooming future!! Instead I admit that I was stupid and I let go because I can not change it. I can't take back anything, but I'm willing to spend the rest of my life correcting it and you should to.

Don't sit and punish yourself for any thing you may have done in the past that you are not pleased with, just let go and move on.

Let go and be free....Let go and strive for better tomorrows....LET GO AND FLY!!

Rendering Evil

I will NOT render evil for evil, it makes no sense.
What are we really left with when someone does us wrong and we turn right around and do the same thing?

People will fight you all the days of your life but its up to you to decide if you going to accept defeat by rendering evil or keep on fighting by praying about the situation and for the individual(s).

I've had my fair she of trials with people who will stop at nothing but to hurt me over and over again, but when I look at them, I feel so sorry for them because the only reason they are trying their best to bring me down is because they are so empty and bitter inside.

They find joy in making others unhappy and spreading lies and constantly sabotaging you.

I will NOT render evil for evil, it's a waste of MY strength and My happiness.

Instead I will rise up EVERY single day and pray for these vindictive elements that walk this earth. I will pray for EVERY single snake that tries so hard to slip into my home and make me unhappy. I Will not be move by you Conniving ELEMENTS!

Not today! Not Tomorrow! NOT EVER!

Sabalical Love

Look at us today... who would have thought that from the first day you told me you were in love with me we would be married and still so in love today?

We've been through a lot babes heartache and pain, fights and many arguments until we came to a settlement, we are in love and none of these things would ever faze us to the point that we call it 'Quits'.
The love that we share goes way back, from the moment I saw you, to the day we started talking, to the day we became boyfriend and girlfriend, to the day we said "I do". The Happiest day of my life!!

 I truly do love you boo. Going to bed practically giggling at nights after having a good joke about something you said or did, to waking up smiling and thanking the good Lord that I have you by my side. You really do get on my nerves sometimes and I do the same, but when it all boils down boo....Love Conquers all!

You keep me smiling inside out because you always know what to do to keep this woman in your life...Your Wife, happy. I promise you that as long as I live I am going to keep you the happiest man alive because you deserve that and more.


Some people search a lifetime for love and on that journey searching for love you find speed bumps....don't give up because of the many challenges along the way. Always keep the faith and PATIENCE along with PRAYER these things will always see you through....

February 14th is a day of love some people say....and they use that time to spend it with their loved ones, but I urge persons to be spontaneous...don't wait until Valentines to spread love to that special someone...Do it all the time it doesn't have to cost anything...it always the thought that counts!

Krissy

xoxox Kensly Deane I love you!!

Expression Tarnished

Woke in the weirdest of moods today.

words cannot express how I feel at this point, but if you cut me I'm not sure a single drop of blood will hit the floor. It's like a build up of anger which I will not let talk over me mind body or soul. But  for now it stains my heart and no matter how much and try to wash it off a speck still lingers.

Constantly taunting me!

The anger is like great mountains crumbling into the deep blue sea, and as they fall the explosion it makes causes a heavy earthquake around the earth's surface. That type of anger, no one should ever allow to take them over. But we all have feeling don't we? feelings that no matter how hard we try to explain it to others not a single soul gets it. Yes those are the feelings I speak of.

Resentment!

I never wanted to resent a single soul in my life, but when people push you to that point, things can get extremely dangerous. You try your best to let people see how bad they are affecting you,  but if they can't see that for them self....who are you to make them see that?

I've reached the point in my life where I have little to say and watch the way things go.....because the more you say...the more you are the WORST person in the world.

On my report card throughout my primary school life it's been; Conduct: TALKATIVE.

Well no more will this continue cause when you are a child you see things as being all good, but when you're an adult you see things completely different.

So from now on........

Kristin...? Kristin? Is Kristin here......

She will be SEEN not HEARD!

Hypocritical Controversy

There are many things in life I can not and will never be able to tolerate.

From liars to cheater, to fakes and hypocritical people...but one thing that totally grinds my gears is the way people treat others. I mean does it really hurt to be nice to someone? I'm sure it take a lot more energy to be a total BITCH than to actually be nice to people.

Let's talk bout those mean people who walk around playing all holier than everybody else, but everyday all day long they treat others like shit. Abuse their power and use it to undermine others who are totally innocent and have NEVER EVER did them wrong. They tell lies on you just to get ahead, they lick boots to get to the top and even KISS ASSES! Are these people really content when the put their head on their pillow at night to sleep....cant they really sleep at night with all that BITTERNESS and WICKED in their heart?

I doubt that though...but some people have a heart boy.

Then there are the people who talk up to you on a daily basis and make things look like all is well with you and them, when we know for a fact that is definitely not the case. These PRETENTIOUS BITCHES that walk this earth and think people don't see their true colours.....Trust me...People see you guys all the time,they just refuse to say a damn thing to you cause it won't make a damn difference to you anyway!!

Then their are those who feel they can talk to you any old how and get away with it. YES you know those people who take all their anger and frustration out on the people who actually care for them the most. You know those people they say what ever they want to and don't give a shit if it hurts the other person. These people need to suck it up and get with the damn program cause that shit is not going to get you any damn way.
Then there are those who can't deal with the fact that someone cares so damn much about them and only want the best for them so they try to give them constructive criticism....but the rather hear it from people who don't give a RAT'S ASS about what they doing. You guys should learn to take criticism from home before you try to take it elsewhere cause these are the people who are REAL to you.

I've had to deal with all these people in my lifetime and still deal with them mostly because I have to, but what hurts the most is when you talk to these people about their attitude or try to make a change somebody seems to wants to see change so you stuck in that little circle until you and leave it or change it.

People need to MAN UP to their flaws. Accept them for what they are and try to change them, cause if you don't change it, no one can!

I'm getting too OLD and TIRED for all this SHIT!

Let's do something better for 2013!!

B Gen-New-Win

People should learn to be a bit more genuine in society or at least try to, you know it's not that very hard to do?
Maybe its hard for some people, but it is an attitude which can be changed if one wants to.

Being real about a situation, it will definitely be so much better if people be more genuine the....y? the  WORLD will be a better place.

Ever wonder why some persons working in the same place can never get along at times it because most of the times some one does not work genuinely. I believe that if persons attempt to be more genuine team work meshes together and more work gets done.

A workplace which carries fake persons and negative energy brings little or no work.

So here's the trick try being a little more GENUINE today and you will see how much the people around you change.....because GENUINE attracts GENUINE!

2012 Change

It's not what you've done in your past that really matters,
It's what you do in the future to change that.

Often times people let whatever bad they have done in their past affect their future and their drive to Progress.


I've done some things in my past that some people may call "regrets" or "mistakes"....I call them "Lessons Learnt".

They are lessons learnt because they have made me a more mature and inspiring individual.
The Trick is not to sit and murmur on what could have been or what should have been, but to reflect on what will be if I let it happen.


In my life I have been not stepped on but trampled on, talked about and ridiculed just because I wanted to become the best person I could be. There are always going to be these types of people surrounding you...trying to suck the life out of your purpose in life.


As I move forward on the pursuit to happiness, I urge everyone to do the same forget about the past and move on to you bright future in 2012 and beyond.


Change will Grace me for 2012 and its a change I'm ready to embrace......2012 Change<3 


Kristin 

Taking a Chance

I'm taking a Chance...on a path in the right Direction.
Putting aside all childish ways and attitudes aside to earn a greater satisfaction.
I know what I'm bout and I've faced many challenges but still..I'm taking a chance to form a brighter day.

You may say I'm young, you may say I'm not ready...but who are you to judge?
You don't know my capabilities.....I've faced many changes in this life...

So now I'm ready to take that chance.

You may say it's just a phase I'm going through, well I'll tell you this...it's a Phase of a lifetime, cause this will never change.

So don't discourage me, SUPPORT ME!

Cause in this life you have to take chances and today I've Decided to take that chance.

Abused Intimidation

There are many things in life that you can make a lesson from.

One of those things can be the way some people in authority treat you.

Some of these people use their authority to feed their very own personal malice, however

it is up to you to stand up for yourself despite the circumstances which may follow.

These people should NEVER be allowed to take advantage of you.

Then there are some people in authority who may look at you and assume that they can walk allow over you just because you may look a certain way...I say NEVER be intimidated by them...STAND UP for yourself.

Let it be known that they can never Break you, simply because they did not make you.

So who are they to DESTROY you?

Live life to the fullest and keep in mind that you are in control of shaping you own destiny, Never let the wicked Flesh of Selfish people take away what they never help build!!

Kristin

There Comes a Time..

There comes a time in our lives when we should decide...
What's right and What's wrong?
What's makes us happy or sad?
What's love and what's hurt?

Which ever one you choose it defines you and how you value yourself...
Thinking outside the box matters as we move on the path of LIFE.

Do we want to live in what's wrong, feel sad and always hurt?
Or do we want to live right, be happy and feel loved?

YOU CHOSE!

But remember You Only Live Once and HE has the choice whether Live or die!

We can't always allow people to charter our destiny with their own selfish ways and  intentions.
They say people find love in hopeless places, but is it worth it if the love itself is hopeless?
Is it worth it when the Love is on a one way street?

Cherish yourself, Love yourself, and do what's best for you..You only have one life to live, so live it well!!

If you're loving and it seems hopeless, after trying and trying...Let go and Let God!

ThinkingOutLoud: Unconditional Fusion

ThinkingOutLoud: Unconditional Fusion: Its that feeling you get when you look in their eyes, the touch of their hands, those smiling lips that tells you know lies... You know i...

Unconditional Fusion

Its that feeling you get when you look in their eyes,
the touch of their hands, those smiling lips that tells you know lies...

You know its not an Illusion....I call it 'unconditional LOVE fusion'

That look in their eyes when they tell you those three words...
those three words that soothes your mind body and soul....

You know its not an Illusion....I call it 'unconditional LOVE fusion'

You lie cuddled in their arms...without a care in the world...when you had a long day, just the thought of coming home to them....oh how it eases the pain.

Its just something you can't explain...

Everyone hurts, everyone cries....but there is always that special one who can dry your eyes.

you know its real, you know its no illusion.....

I call it unconditional 'LOVE' fusion!!

ThinkingOutLoud: Hope It's not too late!

ThinkingOutLoud: Hope It's not too late!: I hope It's not to late for you to tell that special one you love them... I hope its not to late to say you're sorry.... Really hope you ...

Hope It's not too late!

I hope It's not too late for you to tell that special one you love them...
I hope its not too late to say you're sorry.... 
Really hope you see how stupid you are for making havoc out of this little ants nest.


People can be so self-centred at times, that they forget what they really have in life.
People can get so high on Mount Everest and forget the people they left drowning in the Mississippi....


While you're on that high don't forget your lows...
you know those days...the days when you didn't believe in you....the days when you didn't think you could make it.


Remember who thought you could....Never forget them...Cherish them.


I hope you come to your senses and see the bigger picture in life.


Don't keep in that little corner of yours and think you don't need anyone.


I hope you see the truth.....
I hope it's not too late....

Revenge!!

May 15, 2008 7:39 AM

Sitting here...confusion in my brain.

Lying there Distruction and pain.
Standing here...Eruption of strain.

Where does the agony end?
how can the pain mend?

Stepped on...walked over, taken advantage of...
WHY???
Is it because you think you're better than me?
Is it because you think you  have the power???

Questions in my brain...causing Distruction, Pain and Eruption of Strain.

I'm left surrounded in Darkness, But i refuse to be swallowed by it!!!


Rumble!!! Rumble! Rumble!!!!
That's the Anger inside of me.

But can you tell I'm angry?!!!

My tears flow like a waterfall splashing into a tremendous River.
Hurting Inside....The Anger in me I won't show.

NO!!!!!
NO!!!!!
NO!!!!!!!

I won't shed another tear!
Why???

Revenge is near!!!!

Ohh...Sweet Revenge is near!


 Kristin